Apr 2018
Here’s to everyone dealing with depression;
I know how hard it is because I’m going through the same thing, feeling forced to get out the bed in the morning, being moody, always worrying and not living the moment, you try to act happy around your friends and family and when you’re alone by yourself, the mask falls off, you get tired of being someone you’re not, feeling obliged to hang out with the people you want to get away from, and hating everyone else. you just want to enjoy your own company, but then you realize how lonely you are and you want to socialize and feel loved by everyone, but as always you can’t, and why? Because you’re afraid to be annoying, you’re afraid that people won’t love you because you’re not good enough, you’re afraid that people will make fun of you. So you forget all about that, and you return to the 2 or 3 and sometimes the 1 friend you have because you’re too insecure to make new friendships. You lose your social skills and it becomes a phobia talking to others, you’ve been lonely for so long now!
And that’s not everything, i bet no one knows how many times you tried to commit suicide but unfortunately you fail, and i bet no one knows about those scars in your arms or any part of your body. You get also trust issues, you just find it hard to trust anyone and if you were like me, I’m sure you have experienced too many failures in your relations (either a friendship or a relationship) and because all these failures, you start to feel rejected, unwanted, not good enough, and you start to blame yourself for having this ugly face, and you don’t take compliments seriously, do you?
You lose that little faith you had, you only believe the negative things you’ve been told, because you’re 100 percent sure that you’re worthless and there’s nothing good in you just because people tell you that and reject you everytime or bully you.
Let me mention also that your eating habits change. suddenly, you don’t want to eat anymore, you don’t get hungry, you used to love eating so much but look at yourself now! You’re hardly putting something in your mouth. You start to sleep less hours or more than you should sleep, you panic about anything, your heart beats faster all the time because you’ve been living under pressure for so long.
The things that depression cause are uncountable, and that’s not something we can fix it’s just something to accept and live by.
I know how hard it is because I’m going through the same thing, feeling forced to get out the bed in the morning, being moody, always worrying and not living the moment, you try to act happy around your friends and family and when you’re alone by yourself, the mask falls off, you get tired of being someone you’re not, feeling obliged to hang out with the people you want to get away from, and hating everyone else. you just want to enjoy your own company, but then you realize how lonely you are and you want to socialize and feel loved by everyone, but as always you can’t, and why? Because you’re afraid to be annoying, you’re afraid that people won’t love you because you’re not good enough, you’re afraid that people will make fun of you. So you forget all about that, and you return to the 2 or 3 and sometimes the 1 friend you have because you’re too insecure to make new friendships. You lose your social skills and it becomes a phobia talking to others, you’ve been lonely for so long now!
And that’s not everything, i bet no one knows how many times you tried to commit suicide but unfortunately you fail, and i bet no one knows about those scars in your arms or any part of your body. You get also trust issues, you just find it hard to trust anyone and if you were like me, I’m sure you have experienced too many failures in your relations (either a friendship or a relationship) and because all these failures, you start to feel rejected, unwanted, not good enough, and you start to blame yourself for having this ugly face, and you don’t take compliments seriously, do you?
You lose that little faith you had, you only believe the negative things you’ve been told, because you’re 100 percent sure that you’re worthless and there’s nothing good in you just because people tell you that and reject you everytime or bully you.
Let me mention also that your eating habits change. suddenly, you don’t want to eat anymore, you don’t get hungry, you used to love eating so much but look at yourself now! You’re hardly putting something in your mouth. You start to sleep less hours or more than you should sleep, you panic about anything, your heart beats faster all the time because you’ve been living under pressure for so long.
The things that depression cause are uncountable, and that’s not something we can fix it’s just something to accept and live by.
