I haven't been on here for weeks, it has allow me to clear a lot of my thoughts, I didn't want to let you go (smile on my face), but we knew one of us had to make the decision. I miss you, your voice, your smile, your scent, it doesnt matter how strong I want to be I want you here with me, you became my second nature, part of my being, I tried not to write you but every day my mind flowed with verses for you, not sad ones but joyful thoughts of our time together. I dont know if you will get to read this, I'm still afraid that if I send you the link to this page you will not accept it, I dont know. But you were right, out of sight out of mind does help in some ways, except when I become aware of something we shared.