I looked through you
but it was still blur,
you never opened,
nor surrendered.

Despite of attempts,
of any social encounters,
I can't unlock,
hideous ways you preferred

I have had enough,
my specrtrum has been filled
I've waited patiently,
yet you killed

Directions are accepted,
taught me,
Operated me, like
a well oiled machine.

right from the eyes,
your mind games was a success,
despite of your numbness,
I'm still a victim of your caress

Followed your ways,
still believed and inspired
despite of the danger
despite of the gap.