you only show yourself in dreams
with open arms ready for the hug
ive been longing to give you
since that day i've been mourning.

i always kiss you in those dreams
and you always brush my hair back
whispering in my ear
how everything will be okay now, i have you.

i used to wake up and scream
tears would instantly follow
and id ask the ceiling why
why won't you leave me alone?

but after a few of those
i remembered that im hardly a widow
that im better than tears
i remember that im happy
because you showed me love.


i will always remember you.
and the dreams only soften the blow that you were a disappointment.