I don't want to feel anymore!
You promised me a future in union,
You promised me a lot,
But you delivered none.
You evoked constant pain and heartache;
Empty promises blinded me.
When it was over-
It felt like thousands of arrows coated with rat poison, pierced my vulnerable aorta.
The raw emotion is what drove me from ever wanting to feel again.

Fair is mendacious.
For i was a fool.
I'd rather be surrounded by:
Dead flowers,
Crying children,
Filthy corruption,
Atrocious massacre,
And darkness.
Because these carry no facade:
Foul is real
They are sincere and geniune in their aims.
Don't fool with my purity and innocence-
I desensitize.

-Nuha Alli