Apr 2018
You can't be depressed
Actually I can. It's a real a act, it's a real sadness, emptyness. It's real. While you're over here talking crap about me and other people with depression wanting attention. You over there talking smack while I'm over here trying to tell you, trying to convince you that what I'm doing , depression is, that it is real. It's so real that I have to put on an oxygen mask everyday so that way I don't want to collapse & I don't want to give up. I don't want to give up because if I give up then who knows, this depression will never go away, I know that, I really do know that already, why are you over here trying to tell me that I can't be depressed, I can't change the fact I'm depressed if I could I would trust me I would but I can't, so don't tell me that i can't be depressed.
It's so hard living every single day wanting to do nothing. I tried to do things productive but I don't want to. if I have plans I would love to do them but it's not that fun having fun when you don't want to have fun. Trust me when I say living everyday is hard it is, it's a constant battle with yourself that you keep losing, your in a maze & every turn you make gets you in a dead end. You can't get out. you just can't it's impossible. When I say it's impossible I mean impossible. People say that nothing is impossible well depression is a impossible battle that doesn't end and you keep losing.
You wake up every single morning wanting to get up and do something but you can't, it's like you're glued to your bed, it's like you are stuck in your room. you can't get out of your room because you want to be alone but you know deep down that you don't want to be alone and when you say that you want some one to leave you alone you're really saying that you want to see if they are caring enough to stay but they don't know that, of course they wouldn't, they don't know what depression looks like or feels like.
A lot of the time people with depression gets criticized because people think that they're faking it so that way they can get more attention. That's not true, not at all. You know it really hurts me to think that people are criticizing us because they think that we're faking depression so that way we can get more attention but we don't want more attention because that way, when we have attention, people have their eyes on us. It's like we're in a room with eyes on us and it homes in on us. Oh and one more thing, depression is a constant feeling of emptiness and sorrow and wanting to give up.
It hurts us so much
Actually I can. It's a real a act, it's a real sadness, emptyness. It's real. While you're over here talking crap about me and other people with depression wanting attention. You over there talking smack while I'm over here trying to tell you, trying to convince you that what I'm doing , depression is, that it is real. It's so real that I have to put on an oxygen mask everyday so that way I don't want to collapse & I don't want to give up. I don't want to give up because if I give up then who knows, this depression will never go away, I know that, I really do know that already, why are you over here trying to tell me that I can't be depressed, I can't change the fact I'm depressed if I could I would trust me I would but I can't, so don't tell me that i can't be depressed.
It's so hard living every single day wanting to do nothing. I tried to do things productive but I don't want to. if I have plans I would love to do them but it's not that fun having fun when you don't want to have fun. Trust me when I say living everyday is hard it is, it's a constant battle with yourself that you keep losing, your in a maze & every turn you make gets you in a dead end. You can't get out. you just can't it's impossible. When I say it's impossible I mean impossible. People say that nothing is impossible well depression is a impossible battle that doesn't end and you keep losing.
You wake up every single morning wanting to get up and do something but you can't, it's like you're glued to your bed, it's like you are stuck in your room. you can't get out of your room because you want to be alone but you know deep down that you don't want to be alone and when you say that you want some one to leave you alone you're really saying that you want to see if they are caring enough to stay but they don't know that, of course they wouldn't, they don't know what depression looks like or feels like.
A lot of the time people with depression gets criticized because people think that they're faking it so that way they can get more attention. That's not true, not at all. You know it really hurts me to think that people are criticizing us because they think that we're faking depression so that way we can get more attention but we don't want more attention because that way, when we have attention, people have their eyes on us. It's like we're in a room with eyes on us and it homes in on us. Oh and one more thing, depression is a constant feeling of emptiness and sorrow and wanting to give up.
It hurts us so much
