Her soft voice rings in my ears.
My heart melts into the music;
yet again another pain,
yet again another evening filled with tears.

The drum beats are the only thing keeping my
tears from falling much much faster.
Why is it that I lose myself when
you're not here?

I know I am only a selfish and needy mess;
that's all I will ever be.
I'm starting to deteriorate into something
that I used to be that time ago.

For one reason or another, I know I don't
deserve someone as wonderful as her.
But deep in my heart, she is the only person keeping me
pressing on with every excruciating mile.

I only hope she knows how to save a life.

My heart is hurting almost like it is breaking again;
I don't know if I can handle this on my own.
All I can really do is hope;
hope that I will be able to make it.

I'm afraid I'm going to lose it all in one fatal
swoop of this small stainless object.
I know I'm not strong.
I know this isn't supposed to happen.

I just wish I had some ******* incentive.
All my drive for importance has vanished
within these last three years.
My morals have left me.

I'm sobbing right now.
My mind is in peril.
My heart is screaming.

I only hope she knows how to save a life.