You start with a puny piece of metal. You would think its crazy that this control over you but it does. You put it to your skin with your heart racing. Thoughts start to flood your mind. At first you press lightly making a pretty red line. Not enough. You put your blade over the crimson line and press again. Not enough. You press again working up the courage to press harder. Not enough. You slice and you slice till you get to it. The vein. One more cut. You feel faint but decide its time. Blood starts flowing. Your heart is racing. Thoughts flood your head. You hold on for dear life. You realise you have been screaming this whole time. Your sister runs in seeing the blood and you on the floor. Red Everywhere. No way to stop it so you let go. Your horrible thoughts stop. Your sisters calls for help stop. Your heavy breathing stops. Your racing heart. Stops. Everything stops.