What do you see when you look in my eyes? A freak? A nameless being? Or maybe simply another face in the endless sea of people What do I see when I look at myself in the mirror? I see pain, laughter, tears, smiles, fatigue, and endless energy. What do I do When the world I live in Doesn't know I am suffering? I feel the scars On my heart My arms My wrists And I think back to a time when I was truly alone Wondering the streets at night The sky dark and stormy, With the cold rain falling down on me It was like the sky was crying All the tears I was too afraid to shed myself That was along time ago, but still I can feel the sharpness of the blades upon my soul My skin My heart Sometimes at night I sit up Stare at my window And cry, for all the pain I still sometimes feel. I wonder if life is meant to be more then this, This town These people These feelings I am like a caged animal, Trapped inside bars Locked in, with no hope to escape I scream Yell Cry But no one hears me I stand alone On my own little path of life That I have been on for as long as I can remember With a broken heart A broken soul A broken mind Still I struggle on So that I can maybe see beyond this world Of darkness and despair, So I can see the world beyond, Of love and life and happiness So here I stand, A smile on my face, Even though I am being torn apart on the inside. I will continue to smile, And feel And love And I will survive; survive to tomorrow So I can learn to trust again And this sweet agony That has been with me all my life Will be dispersed Become nonexistent Gone No more. And I will finally Be Alive.