I could have saved myself if I said no to you then,
Id rather **** myself ten times over than fall for you again,
And the fact I haven’t ,probably keeps u awake at night,
Hope it hurts u knowing I’m doing alright,
I wanna haunt you in your sleep,
Put my arms around you ,turn the sheets from white to red and wake you up as I bleed,
Rest my wounded body on your beautiful skin,
Make you see what it’s like to be dead within,
Watch as my blood and your tears form a stream,
Let it drip in your mouth so you have a taste of how bitter my life has become,
Let you face the consequences for what you’ve done,
Have you forgotten all the times i slept in the street,
and sacrificed my focus on useful knowledge,
Just so I could hold your hand on our way to college,
Amazed in your presence like I’ve never seen you before,
Your eyes, your hair would make me tremble to the core
And even though you’d smile less and less,
I would love you more and more ,
I don’t wanna forget you, I wanna remember you,
because if we end up crossing paths again one day,
I will know to walk away ,
And after five dreadful years you’ve hurt me to the point,
That every poem I write for you sounds like a suicide note.