I was finally stable.
I could walk without feeling like
With one misstep
I would break everything I know.
I could breathe
And think and talk
Without feeling tightness in my chest.
And now
On a normal day
I get this message.
It blow everything up.
Walls were knocked down
Windows smashed through
Doors once again open
That I thought were forever sealed.
I am angry, hurt, and confused
I honestly have no idea what to do.
Fuck you. Fuck what you said.
You make me feel guilty
For things I never did
For the way I feel
And you say you love me.
What the fuck?
You KICKED ME OUT!
YOU ended things.
Not me.
How am I supposed to act?
How am I supposed to feel?
God I have no freaking clue
What I am supposed to do.
So I will sit here and cry to the man I love
Who will hold me and try and make it ok
When there is no way he can
Because there is nothing he can do.
So thanks for nothing,
Once again.
You've crushed my world
Once again
It seems like the only thing you are good at.