so heavy, she wore her sadness like a coat swam in it, never knowing if she'd sink or float and all the dreams that drifted away left her empty, with nothing to say she cries but no tears will come can't even remember what she's running from only that she has to go, further and faster away from this life, self created disaster she hangs her head in guilt and shame feeling like she only has herself to blame not knowing how to fix all that's wrong she's holding on but for how long when the night seems too open, too dark the silence is deafening, save her pounding heart and it's fear, always the fear that something bad is near within her, like a fire burning bright sometimes she feels too tired to fight