im forever losing people in my life due to a mental illness that was bestowed on me at birth I am trying hard to keep things consistent bonding with people over ****** up emotions isn't enough to make them last in this lifetime bingewatching tv shows with characters that are the only friends that won't betray me or leave me when im manic I didnt sleep for three days and my mind was so exhausted i felt like I was normal again but I dont know how to function without my morning cigarette