It wasn't that the joke was funny, it was the fact that my heart was so broken. I never wanted anyone to feel how I feel how I did. So I laughed a whole hearted fake laugh, and everyone believed it. At that moment I realized I was not born to be a musician, I was a natural born actor with the ability to act okay at all times despite the ease that came with being my broken self. This facade was my life, and I had to keep dragging it along.