as a little kid nobody told me how hard it would be
they told me about the ups
and they sure as hell didn't tell me about the downs
i imagined my future life so bright

i imagined
success
finding a dream job
happiness
but in reality
somedays im stuck in my bed
motionless
cramping with anxiety
battling just to stop myself from ending my own life
thinking of anyway
any possible way
to make the pain go away