Epiphany

There was a place. There was a time … There, I stood … still unknowing and everything seemed fine. But there in that place … at that moment in time … the moment I saw the eyes, I'd never believed I'd find. Well, what could I say? What could I do? In a world filled with billions … and there … was a you. I'd always known you were out there … even written of something amiss. I never, ever stopped looking for you … because my heart always said that you exist. My breezy Fall became harshest Winter. My crazy life left my health running out. I'd resigned myself that our moment had passed … but this moment … it removed all doubt. Well, what could I say? Tell me, what could I do? There we stood, staring … alone … in a city of millions … yes, there … there was a you. Oh, that mistress fate, she is just so cruel. Frustration, a curse to be mine. I'd searched for you my entire life … but now … my clock … knows a limit of time. You see, I would never venture a love with you, while knowing I'd have to leave you … hurt and alone. I could only admire from afar … stoic and aloof … while turning my heart into stone. Nothing I could ever say and nothing I could ever do … But now, at long last … at least I finally knew. There, you stood … green seas, gazing up … into skies of blue. My long-awaited revelation … become sorrow-laced realization. There really is … a you.

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Jeff-Gaines

55 / M / L.A.

For You?

Written by

Jeff-Gaines

55 / M / L.A.

Published

Mar 19, 2018

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Notes: Imagine that, for most of your adult life, you have had this sense ... this feeling that there is someone out there that you are supposed to find. Someone you are supposed to connect with. You even write about it and have no clue what made you write these things.

You don't know why ... you don't know who ... and you surely don't know when. All you do know is that it has never left your psyche and that it has always carried this strange sense of urgency.

Now ... after 2 decades, you begin to think that you were just being silly and give up on the whole idea and laugh at yourself.
Then ... just as you have accepted that ...

YOU FIND HER.

It hits you like a ton of bricks ... you realize that the person standing before you, looking right into your eyes is THAT person!

And you realize that you are not only too far apart in age, but you also have to deal with the fact that you are terminally sick as well. Now you ponder if it was EVER supposed to be a romantic thing or that things are just fucked up askew in this timeline ... or perhaps ... it was to fulfill or realize something else in the timeline ...

Now ... ask yourself ... What would you do?

This writing became the basis for my experimental short story entitled:

"Somewhere ... Out There".

I launched it here at HP and could NOT believe the response ...
Everyone LOVED it and it got (at this writing) over 2500 views!
So humbled, SO honored by everyone's love.
Find it here:
https://hellopoetry.com/poem/2396540/thee-longest-piece-ever-uploaded-on-hello-poetry-as-far-as-i-know-i-doubt-youll-read-it-through/
Tags: #search #reincarnation #lost #found

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