I wanted to just be.
But I cannot just be,
Not while I'm here you.
Even though you rarely come around.
You slide into my door like a snake.
And for some reason
I let you back inside.
I'm crazy.
Explosions have wreaked my mind.
I must be insane
Because no normal person,
Who contains a sliver of self-confidence,
Would let you do this to them.
I want to cry, but the tears won't spring from this jail cell.
All I ever wanted was to be
And now I have to try to find that
After you.
That makes it so much harder,
Not because you were such a great lover or passionate or my world.
But because I finally realized you never did care.
I cannot calm myself.
Because my hopes of a good relationship
Is completely and utterly dashed
Thanks to all your crap.
And being, now, is just too much of a struggle for me to deal with.