I am so bruised and broken.
So betrayed by my own soul.
My mind partners with the forces
that keep me from being whole.
And I remember being happy-
Even happy to be sad
But there's nothing in my heart now,
My spirit has gone bad.
I long to be the one,
To be perfect in someone's eyes
Someone who sees me for who I am
And shows me how to fly
I wish I could make mistakes again
Because I could have a reason to remorse
To myself I can't apologize,
My edges are too coarse.
I love so free and open
I fall so hard, so fast
For things that break and shatter
For things I know won't last.
I see only good in people
But only bad in me
Because I work so hard to achieve something
I know I cannot be.