get yourself acquainted with new smells and let them fill the sad corners of your home; two months ago i would've told you i wanted to bottle up his smile and keep it in my pocket to remind me that i love him even when it got lost between all the heavy words
but he left a heart-shaped hole in my life and the shape is too intricate for me to fill with empty love so i abandoned the space
beds can only be so comfortable when you get used to them and sink further into the mattress each day you become prisoner to an idea of safety and the feeling of emptiness
i left and found green gardens roses and sunflowers; i thought i'd never seen a flower in my life he'd painted me a life so bleak i think i'd stopped seeing color
maybe i don't love the garden for its' flowers and grass but i can finally feel the sun against my skin
i'd always thought i was too sensitive because he was my sun
i promise you this is not a sad poem or a love poem but rather an ode to me and all the gardens growing within me;