The trust you once held for me within you has shattered into a million pieces.
I cut myself trying to put it back together,
Willing to bleed until the day you forgive me.
Forgive me for all of the lies I told to manipulate you,
Forgive me for all the pain I am now causing you,
Forgive me for making you believe I was worthy of your trust.
I have had to burn down bridges to speak the truth,
I have had to strangle the inner demons that lay within my soul to have the courage to tell you.
And now that I have I’m not so sure if what I am doing is right,
They say telling the truth is always the best thing to do,
But now I have lost the only important person in my life.
This person gave me life,
Without their life I would have taken my own years ago,
I would have let my wrists bleed out into the sink until I felt nothing anymore,
I would have kept chugging that whiskey until I wasted away,
I would have pulled the trigger if you hadn’t left the safety on again.
But I will not give up,
I will not let you slip through my finger tips,
I will not let my dark past decide my future,
I am willing to bleed until you forgive me,
And Until I show you that I do care.