I never knew quite what triggers were
What they could make you feel , let alone what they make you do
I knew i had depression , severe depression
That was obvious
But i never realized the word Depression was a trigger
Anytime i see it in an article or hear it in a song
I can vividly sense my heart beating faster than normal
Can feel it slithering away from the source of that ****** word
However when i say it , nothing
I feel nothing that i havent felt before
So i never tried to avoid this word that provoked me
Never did anything to somewhat fix this labored breathing
Never called for help when my eyes were bleeding salt water
Salt water that stung my cuts , stung the incision on my heart
Sliced because every time i knew i couldnt handle any more
I pushed more hurt to my hurting
I never knew quite what triggers were
But if i knew living would be this hard
I wouldnt of put in the effort