You know, I never dreamed about it,
Sitting, writing, thinking
To come up with these texts,
I always dreamed of another life ...

I dreamed of being a programmer
Ever since childhood,
I studied programs, computer,
But when I wanted to go to college,
They told me: "You have a three in computer science."
So my first dream collapsed.

In my heart I was a writer,
And I can combine words into strings,
A strings into a couplets,
And I typed skills with every text
Was getting smarter,
But I do not have a voice!
So my second dream collapsed.

The third dream was my personal family,
But for this dream there is no place to be,
After all, no one will endure my bad character,
And nobody looks at me ...
And I do not want to see anyone.
There is no more room for feelings in my body.

And after all this,
Having lost faith and all hopes
I, like a log in the river,
Began to go with the flow,
And to hope for "God," but I'm not a believer ...
And I got confused in days,
After all, as in the movie "Groundhog Day"
Everything repeats again and again!
Again the same thoughts,
The same pain,
The same teary rain
From my eyes.