It’s not easy being me
Seeing life in beautiful colors
Yet also in their dullest colors
People find dull colors hideous
I find all colors beautiful
I can see life as others can and cannot
I can help those with their sight set on dull
Yet I can’t help myself when I’m dull
Moment in my life have the brightest of beautiful colors
But on other days it’s dark
I embrace the dark with sleep
I embrace the dark with eating
I embrace the dark with silent cries
I embrace the dark entirely
I live my life with this darkness
And I’m ok with it because I can cope with it
But not everyone can cope with it like I
Sometimes, just sometimes
Forcing myself to see beautiful colors
To mask the pain and sadness
Starts to reveal that I’m no longer masking
It’s all reality
You mask your true emotions
So, you don’t receive a
“What’s wrong?”, “Are you ok?”
Every single day of every moment
Masking causes problems for me
Sometimes I cannot mask my emotions
Which effects relationship with people
Friendship, Partnership, and Family
It affects those around me
I apologize for the inconvenience
It’s not easy being me
-A.D.