I pulled the veil off my soul
I opened a window and let out the smoke
I took a hammer and smashed the mirrors
I took a step from the darkness and reached for the light
I attempted to live
I attempted to be
And love retreated

Do I shackle myself back to the somber......to the silence.......to the dark?

or

Do I continue to reach from the dark.......reach for the light........and find happiness?

One thing I am most certain

If I choose to keep writing or choose to stop..........I lose
I will lose myself......lose myself........lose myself in the words

or
I will lose them........lose him........lose her.........lose all........lose none

I've never chose me before and I am tired of being lost
With a heavy heart and fear of loss I say:

to them......to him......to her.......to all......to none

I am tired of bumping around in the darkness basking for a brief moment in someone elses light
Stay or go is not my choice

It is YOURS

Take me as I am.....growing.....shaping.....living.....shining
or
here is the door

Good-bye to you
Hello to *ME