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The Anniversary of What Started Everything

My name is Erin

and i was *****

at the age of 7

 

it has taken me

14 years of my life

for those 13 words to escape

my hollow mouth

 

the only questions i come to now

is why

why lock me in that room

why take everything from me

my innocence

my purity

my childhood

 

in that room

where my family trusted you

where i trusted you

the night terrors i have to this day

still haunt my mind

 

like a never ending

drive in movie that plays

over

and

over

only the moon in the night sky

isnt made to be found here

there is no light in these terrors

 

i cant sleep this time of year

because every time i do

its you

in that room

locking the door

shutting the windows

********** me

yelling at me

every single night

i close my eyes

 

it has taken me 14 years

to accept the fact that i was taken by you

i have been numb ever since

left in the dust

rotting away at the core

thinking i was nothing

thinking i deserved nothing

because you took everything

 

but not anymore

i will recover from this

i am strong enough

i believe in myself

i believe in my own happiness

and i promsie

that when i have children one day

i will never ever let them rot at the core

i will find happiness

the darkness will not take over this time

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Written by
Herr
29 / F / everywhere else
Published
Feb 27, 2018
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#abuse#adult#child#hurt#emotional
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