screams scraping their way out of my abused throat terrified; raw and primal pale lines clawed across my cheeks nails jagged and bitten down hangnails pulled to reveal red, vulnerable flesh coughs wracking my sick form head thrashing, gasping pants heaving slim chest up and down, up and down
an image taunts my vision a picture of two serene people, so totally in love you can feel it from the photograph clammy hands desperately reach for it reach for you, the imaginary version the one where my arms wont grab at air when reaching for a hug where my hands wont curl into fists at seeing you love everyone but me where broken sobs dont echo through the empty bathroom and bile doesnt get flushed down the toilet where i am not so isgusting where you do not despise me
you're not mine to keep nor the one to blame but still, this love is driving me ******* insane.