She is forever trying to understand what it means to be soft and what it means to be hard and how the two are nearly the same thing but given different connotation. To be soft is to be loving but that is also to be hard. To be hard is to be brave but that is what loving is. She doesn’t need you but she allows you to rejoice in her, because that is what loving is.  Being soft is being open and being hard is not?  To be hard is to be ready to be confident to be challenging. Is that not what loving is?  To be soft is to be hard is to be soft is to be HER.  You have required a division of the good of the great of the unstoppable inside of her because you are nothing.  Being soft means being hard and you must watch her do it all.  You must watch her NOW.  She is rumbling.