You're making me uneasy..
I uttered with an adolescent anxiousness
that trailed, shaky, behind my words.
There is nothing wrong.. she said,
with a poignancy she couldn't hide.
There is nothing wrong..
There is nothing wrong..
I let her falsity echo quietly
through my anxious mind
while choking down
enough bottom-shelf sauce
to dull the sound.
There were tears in her eyes,
and they weren't the kind that
you'd shed from loneliness,
but the kind you'd save
'til you found yourself in bar
full of drunkards
feigning joy
while sitting across
from the person
you can't love back.
My eyes met hers with curiosity
and she wiped her face,
pulled her glass from her lips
and kissed me.
She always kissed me differently
when I worried.
You're making me uneasy.. I said again.
Stop it. There is nothing wrong..
I watched her lips spill the same lie
onto the table between us.
It formed a puddle of regret
and longing that neither of us
were ready to clean up.
There is nothing wrong..
There is nothing wrong..
I couldn't tell which one of us
needed to believe it most,
either way,
neither of us
were falling for it.
She kissed me again
and I headed for the door
still feeling uneasy
as she sat there
all alone
fighting tears.