I walk up the stairs in a rather unorthodox way preferring my step pattern to never stay the same since for years I dabbled in forever and always pays always laughs always makes the first move Now, always late, always last, or at least never first an unquenchable thirst for connections and friends and un-sad yet unhappy terms coming to ends with immune systems weak, we're crumbling in the end but it's only me bleeding out my ends from a poor ulcered tract For years they've begged me to put on a smile and I still find it a struggle to stay in tact