if you have the choice (you always have the choice in every ******* second) to be vulnerable or to be guarded, choose vulnerability because it’s honest it’s clear, it’s concise, it’s the realest thing you’ll ever feel. lying and reminding yourself to keep lying, smiling and reminding yourself to keep smiling, crying and reminding yourself to stop crying can be such hard work and honesty, even when throat throttling blatant, even when timidly tender, even when sharply studded, or sickly injured, will always save you in the end even if it hurts like dry ice whistling on your heart, even if the person you love chooses to depart, even if the pit in your stomach is knotting, or rotting and you feel hopeless, worthless, foolish, guilty, horrid, evil, mixed up or unhealthy - honesty will always save you in the end