It hurts,is there ever a time when one day you can't feel anything. But they say its better to feel something than nothing. Have you ever felt that. When  your numb and your just there cause your not sure what to do. Yup all the ****** time, and i contemplate all the time when im there running my fingers down my thighs. Ouch, i feel it, I feel the pain that was confusing me inside my heart and mind. It's warm dripping from my thighs. I guess there the tears that are supposed to be falling from my eyes, but there not. At least i can say I felt agian.