Feb 2018
A heart filled with emotion
I'm constantly in motion
Trying to forget the pain
But its brought up once again
I am trying to move on
Still my broken heart is torn
Like before, I feel alone
And now I am not at home
I got away from father
But he's still such a bother
I have left my friends behind
To protect that heart of mine
In court, I brought my brother,
"I blame you" says my mother
His actions are NOT my fault,
This lesson she must be taught
Life for me is difficult
Happiness can not be bought
Sometimes I don't want to live
Its easier to give in
I have my blades around me
I dont have a family
I have to lie through my teeth
To the point I can not breath
Yes, don't worry, I am fine
Ill just give it some more time
Ill bury my feelings deep
And hope to solve it with sleep
The next day isn't better
I feel like I dont matter
My will to live is gone
Still, I have to remain strong.
I'm constantly in motion
Trying to forget the pain
But its brought up once again
I am trying to move on
Still my broken heart is torn
Like before, I feel alone
And now I am not at home
I got away from father
But he's still such a bother
I have left my friends behind
To protect that heart of mine
In court, I brought my brother,
"I blame you" says my mother
His actions are NOT my fault,
This lesson she must be taught
Life for me is difficult
Happiness can not be bought
Sometimes I don't want to live
Its easier to give in
I have my blades around me
I dont have a family
I have to lie through my teeth
To the point I can not breath
Yes, don't worry, I am fine
Ill just give it some more time
Ill bury my feelings deep
And hope to solve it with sleep
The next day isn't better
I feel like I dont matter
My will to live is gone
Still, I have to remain strong.
I put my heart into this. I have been dealing with so much. My brother is in court with charges of multiple ****** and physical assault. My mom blames me for reporting it. I only did it because he has been targeting other children. They dont have a voice to speak up right now. I cant let that happen. My parents also just seperated. I don't get along with either parent but I chose my mom because my father is physically abusive. I left all my friends and now starting in a new place too. I have been having really bad flash backs and bad dreams. I want to give up so much right now because I dont have anyone to talk to. No one supports me. I am literally alone at the moment. I feel like I need someone more than ever right now too. Ill get through just like everything else but it hurts really bad.
