Unspool your foggy self- importances and seize the sheer, visceral present, or simply ladle and spoon the strait and narrow. Truth skims the surface of the mind's eye - immediacy and brutality (always your specialties) are to be expected, even pursued, the loosening of mind and its swindling of body sifted under opportunistic eyes.
(I imagine tragedies rolling like marbles in your ivoried hands).