What the hell goes on in this jumbled up mess I call my mind? Racing thoughts and obsurd notions. The things I fear the most working their way into the deepest,darkest corners they can find. Afraid to be hurt all over again and being the one that has to sort through the unbearable emotions.
  Am I really this damaged that I can't believe that I am somebody worth loving?  I know you are someone I can trust, a haunting voice forces itself inside my head warning me to trust nothing.
  You have been a rock standing firmly in any given time of need. Somehow I am still scared that one day you will leave.The insecurities always creeping in. I try my best to push them aside cause this time I refuse to let them win. The biggest part of me is screaming  stop being afraid. The other voice is telling me he wont love me forever,eventually it will fade. I try not to listen but it inevitably makes it's way. I try to ignore it but the sound lingers and stays. I want to love and trust with out limits. I want to let you in, open up completely but I fear you won't like the image.
    You touch me and I can feel it is real. You reassure me when I ask you if you are sure about the way you feel. You have no reason to lie about me making you happy or wanting me in your life. You may not want to be alone but you know how to endure the lonely night. Still I cant stop feeling like I will never be enough.  All because the bitter past has made me feel as such. I just want to love and be loved completely. Nothing holding me back just letting true love In ever so freely.