There are no words for how you make me feel
Because it's a surge of emotions
I know I'm blind and hopeful, how else would I have so many reasons to live?
To wish to see that smile upon your face and enjoy having made it for just a little while
To wish and dream of holding you, of being what you want
So sad, so sad that I'm not
That I have to bear the weight of being told what you want, who you love and ask myself all the while
Why?
Why not me?
But at the same time you make me happy
Because you're happy
That's all I want, I'm fine with that
Because I don't know how else to love
Than with my whole heart
And soul
And to take out chunks and offer them out, at the price of my pain. At the price of my loss
There are no words for how you make me feel
When you
Just talk to me for no reason
Makes me feel special
Makes me feel loved
Makes me feel hopeful
Makes me feel numb
Because I know its nothing to you
Nothing special
Just being nice
Plunging in a knife
Deep into my chest
And turning it while smiling
And saying
This is for the best