Normal.
Peaceful.
Calm.
The air sweet and crystal clear.
Sunlight streaming through windows.
Music playing in the background,
happy and energetic.
and then
a
snap.
Suddenly,
I can't breathe.
The air is thick and shallow breaths
turn to deep ragged ones.
The light is too bright,
my head hurts from it.
My thoughts race.
Why?
I should've...
I'm worthless.
No one likes me.
Why bother.
It doesn't matter.
My head hurts.
No one cares.
Why should they?
I need to work.
My heart hurts.
Why?
Tears spring to my eyes.
I blink them back easily
from months of practice.
The music keeps playing
in the background,
now sounding like
it's underwater.
Submerged in my feelings,
it seems.