fidgeting with whatever you can 'till you just resort to tearing at your cuticles until they bleed and no matter how hard you try, you just can’t stop, you think it’s fine now, but your fingers will be wrapped in band-aids before you know it it's a painful heartbeat pounding against your chest as you rehearse in your head every word that you want to say but when it comes time for you to speak, you cannot breathe it's the sound of the crying babe in the theatre as you stand on stage with all eyes on you blinded by lights and expectations it’s being trapped in a tight space, surrounded by skyscrapers and voices and when you look up, you can’t see the stars it's trembling legs like a newborn deer it’s the tightness in your chest after sending a risky text it’s talking to someone and looking anywhere but their face it's mindless noise drowning out everything that you need to hear