She stares at me with her bright green eyes and golden wavy hair that falls perfectly.
"Mama, why?"
What in all my years has prepared me to answer this?
"That's—because—"
Ask me no questions, I'll tell you no lies.
"Because—"
I flounder, but she doesn't notice. She just stares at me, waiting.
I think. I should have looked this up. I should have anticipated it. I stare at her.
"Hmm? Mama?"
I decide to brush it off. "You know why. You're just fishing." I tease. Deflect. Wait.
But still she stares, so I lean in. Hating each word before it emerges. As if the sum of our existence, our attractiveness to the world, our usefulness, hangs on this one flimsy, filmy, fleeting facet of our being—