Sometimes I’ll feel so stricken with a sense of emptiness
That I’ll keel over
And my stomach will drop, and the sun will sting me in the eye
And I can’t breathe
The earth is a giant vacuum
And I’m trapped and I feel so unwanted
The hot air swarming around my nostrils
And I’ll hold my stomach
And tell myself this is it
This is where you brought yourself
And I’ll stare at the floor and I’ll feel so meek
Like an ant in a magnifying glass
Like their all laughing
With bared teeth, white gleaming eyes, like headlights coming at you
Fast and unforgiving
Then it stops
And I breathe and
breathe and
breathe
And it all stops
A kaleidoscope of fragments of light dancing around my eyes
I can see the tree tops
The leaves swaying lazily back and forth
And the clouds are swollen with cotton candy buoyancy
Gleaming
Beckoning me to climb all the way to the top
And the tops of the buildings, snaggletoothed, covered in filth and bird ****
Lots of bird ****
And I look at my arms
And I remember that I’m so impermanent



I should smile more often.