teaching me how to disconnect
you kept me from my own thoughts
helped me escape the monsters
yet, forced me to concentrate on you
the way your heart couldn't focus on mine
I watched your eyes lose sight of mine
Tried teaching myself not to love you
But I failed the same way you failed at loving me
So I stayed
Watched you hate the thought of us
Heard you talk about anything but us
As I spent nights thinking about us
The older version
One where two people loved each other
Two against the world
But now its me and the unavailable you