I thought you needed closure?
I did, but I was told you can’t find reasons for everyone’s actions.
That I’d need to close that door myself.
“You think you’re the first to feel pain? I know it plenty.”
My mama said.
“Just get off the floor, dust yourself off and brace for many.”
This wasn’t supposed to happen to me mama. I was safe, didn’t let many people in, and stayed in my place.
“Oh cause you guarded yourself you think you would never feel it? You’re human like me, best chance you have is to heal it. Let the tears flow, I know you say you don’t but try. You’ll probably feel like a new man once your eyes dry.”
Mama I’m not built for this, there’s only so much I can take.
“Boy do you know exactly what’s at stake? You’re a king who always tries to help others. Now you need our help and you know we’ve got you covered. But we’ll need your help more.You can’t heal if you don’t want to. And if you’re down in the dumps how’s anyone gonna want you?”
Mama you know I don’t care about that. I’ve been alone for so long I don’t even know where I fit in at.
I put other people first yeah, but that just scares them. It’s too much pressure probably, so I get treated like a witch from Salem.
But I ain’t here to whine or beg. I just want out of this misery.
“But you’re a King.”
I don’t care where I go down in history.
I want out.