It pains me Because your so happy when it comes to me But I just don’t want to hurt you You can be happy and gleeful and ecstatic But I can’t really feel that anymore Now I only feel three things Sober Sober is work And work is no fun Drunk Drunk is freedom And freedom is fun Even if it’s all just a lie And Empty The last thing I can feel Because if I’m not working or I’m not drinking I just feel nothing Just An emptiness inside A pain that doesn’t quite hurt But I can’t ignore either I haven’t felt much for the last three years Because before I was happy God I was happy... But she took my very soul and burned it till there was nothing but ashes I scrounged through the ashes looking for a shred of sanity And all I found was a few embers of what once was The last time I tried to ignite them She ran away and told me we shouldn’t That we were friends And we shouldn’t change that Because it can turn into something beautiful But if If it just disappeared then we wouldn’t be able to go back So now I’m deserted Left with one Just one ember Of what once was I really hope it can burn forever But you’ll probably douse the flame just as it lights Please Just don’t be cold Don’t wash me away...