They say the most recent pain is the one that hurts the longest And ******* hurt like a hammer to the heart You hurt like my throat burning raw after crying for hours You hurt like all the empty morning hours I spend crying now You hurt like no tomorrow even though I’ll love you forever And they said the most recent pain is the one that hurts the longest But how come it feels like it will never stop Because I know **** well in a year When I find pictures of you buried beneath boxes my heart will still skip a beat Someone in my math class has the same name as you And when I heard your name called god I felt nervous all over again even though I knew it wasn’t you What the **** do you think that felt like I could tell you But you probably won’t get it Because unlike you I wasn’t cold about my feelings I didn’t push you away when I needed you most And I’m not the one who left Those are all things you did And I am not you I put my heart on a platter and gave it to you I remember your favorite color being red I’ll always remember And I’ll remember your family, And I’ll remember that your colorblind and how much you love donuts I’ll remember the look in your eyes the night you told me you’d try And I’ll remember the first song that ever played while we made love that first time I’ll remember vanilla hair gel, and 5 am conversations I won’t forget you, ever Please don’t forget me