How do you do it? What is this spell? I can’t let you go. Is this my hell I’m forced to live with every day Now that you’ve decided to go away?
My world has turned upside down My emotions go from the sky to the ground In one quick flash My world has crashed And now I have to rise from the ash.
It doesn’t take much. The sight of you. A text. A call. Your name. A song. A flash of memory… And then, The battle begins. Deep within- Down In the depths Of my heart And soul. The emotions whirl And they swirl Tossing everything To and fro, Back and forth, From ecstasy to depression For the good times we had, and what we have lost… From contentment to rage For the comfort we felt and the things you have done From rational to primitive Knowing you’re not the best thing for me and yet wanting to deny all because I want you. Of all the people in this world I chose you. You were my life. My heaven on earth. And yet now, you are my hell.
What is this spell? I can’t let go. Why did you decide to go? Was it really that easy to decide to leave While I stood there with my heart on my sleeve?
Don’t worry about me. I’ll be fine. I just have to fight this hell of mine. The flames we ignited with a spark That did not leave when you were done with my heart. Out of the ashes I will rise I’m just really, really bad at goodbyes.