Hills covered in green, as I lay beside you, wondering what it all means.

The sweet smell of Lilacs and the beautiful summer sky.

Gliding down the pavement, wind in my hair.

Almost feels like a dream, a movie, where I'm the star.

However, I keep my scars hidden.

A wide smile that will fool the world, they don't really know how broken I am inside.

Glass cuts at my skin and teeth.

Friends always hide, my mind tricking me with each **** of my breath.

Everything feels off balance, wolves howl in the street.

A figure, holds me close.

Its warmth is so familiar, almost like a loving fathers.

However, I lost that a long time ago.

The sky turns red, as dread washes over me.

I close my eyes, to a time where everything was alright.

White noise, and static echo like crashing waves.

My heart feels heavy in my chest, soon the oxygen will abandon me like the rest.

Leaving me gasping on my knees, begging for that familiar peace.

When hills covered in green, as I lay beside you, wondering what it all means.

However, it's all just a fantasy.

I'll never have true happiness, not even in my dreams.