You said it wasn’t my fault
But if it really wasn’t you wouldn’t be walking away
You’d still be here
You’d still be here if you cared
Half as much as I do
You’d still be here if you saw sunshine
So I know it was my fault
Because they say when someone really gives a ****, when someone really really gives a ****
They say hell or high water
They compromise
They push through
They’re stronger than they look
And they stick it out
But I guess that’s all my fault too
I guess that just did not exist
Even though I hoped you would be
I pray to god by my thirties some lost love will want to compromise
Because I always mean what I say
Because to be strong means fighting
Everyone has their own problems and mine is that I love too much
And I’m ******* sorry for that
I know my anxiety gets bad but that’s no ones fault
But for once in my life I wish I had a love who wouldn’t blame my anxiety on them
For once in my life I want a love that stays and pushes through
And sees a white picket fence with just me
I can only hope it will be a lost love
Because hope keeps me alive
Sure hurting myself is no better
But I always like things that are never any good in proving me wrong

(v.m)E