A lot of my questions go unanswered,
The request of leniency is dangerous,
Risky at my own circumstance.
I dig inside my bullet holes but stay…. Quiet
Upset at the pain I can’t accept,
I give up my eyes…. dizzy from strains.

Saddened mistakes you begin to realize you always were,
Quiet you stay to avoid disrespect,
Proper to not be a threat,
Rebellious in attitude and in the end, you’re an enemy.

An enemy to yourself and to others,
You try so hard to be heard,
Painted in different colors and different abstracts,
Everyone is colorblind deaf and clueless of your contributions and desires,
I wanted something so common,
I lost something and someone so rare to not obtain it,
But I still stay quiet for you,
To not offend you…. I’ve died for you,
You still want so much more,
All alone I stay quiet.
Why should I speak when I’m more noticed rotting in sleep?

You’d rather attack me than to understand me,
I seem unappreciative,
I seem emotional but lazy,
When I’m mostly quiet,
What if I get too old?
Waiting too long to resolve my thought impediments.
One of us can be gone tomorrow without a word from my lips.
Still though I’d be too loud so today I stay quiet.

My heart speaks beats louder than my words would ever sound,
It still doesn’t learn from the hurt,
Cavities in my teeth from sweet sentiments,
Cavities in my life where you weren’t present,
Surreal events in my mind that make me stay jealous,
All this frustration and I sit in silence,
I still feel this way but I still stay quiet.