Gaping mouths grow from the craters etched Into the plaster walls. The bulbs in the ceiling sockets flicker and grow soft And softer still, Until I cannot be sure of whether Or not I am really here at all.
Honey, Bloodwood sap, And sweet orange marmalade flow From the cracks, ooze From the lips with murmurs, And mingle with the air, Coloring the low glow in such a way That as I lay my eyes upon myself, I do not see my flesh, My hands My feet.
Rather, There upon my lap lies a form Sculpted from the dead weight Of terracotta clay, Pushed, pulled, molded, pressed Extruded through a die By some unseen, unnatural force, And set inelegantly on display.
In this moment, I try to claim it as my own-- To move it in some way that feels natural, real Or complete. And yet, To strain against this heaviness-- To splutter and wheeze As the murmuring tide of warmth rolls in Is to be swept up and drowned In the undercurrent Of my own mind.
Thus, I will float, just so, And the walls, With their dribbling mouths Will seep sticky-sweet whispers Into my hair.