he needs me more than i will ever know; what i am thinking of he asks a hundred times in row; he doesn't let me go; his grip is tight. and most of all he's scared of letting go at night... when darkness falls he draws me to his chest and that for me has now become the only place, my shelter, where i rest; he cares, and never says there is no time to pick up the phone, or think about me just a second; he never says i am the last thing on his mind and by his voice into my little hell im beckoned. the pills i take save me from losing what i've got; they are antibiotics, alas, poison, although antidote. and in the morning when we wake side by side of the other, a mistake? i fear he disappears and never says a word. but he needs me more than i'll ever know. he draws me closer, asks me if im happy ten times in a row; but when we part he speaks to me no more...