Why does it feel like you died
Even though your still alive?
You weren’t the boy who took my virginity
But yet somehow I know for a fact
I gave you my soul
I know for a fact that you loved me too
I could see it when you’d look at me
I would look up for a second and glance back to find you in a daze
I’d ask what you were staring at
And you always stayed quiet
But I know that look meant something
I can only hope it was love
Did you know I sleep with a picture of you under my pillow
Did you know I pray for you every night
Even though I’m not religious
Did you know being tangled up in my blankets is how I feel close to you
You were the boy to break the curse
You broke my three month curse
Only by a day, but we made it
You broke a lot of records, and for that I love you more than anyone
You tried to get me mad one night and when I yelled and burst into tears you said “come here” and held me tighter than a life jacket
When we laid in my bed that first night you said you weren’t going anywhere



—you said you were all in


On the 15th you told me something itching at you and then held my hand and gave me that same look of love and kissed me harder than anyone ever has


—you said you would try


But then you said you needed time

It’s been a week and I haven’t stopped crying.
(v.m)